MISSING DADDy.

So yesturday I went to see my dad in prison. Wow, crazy huh? PRISON. That word is so crazy, I can't believe my dad is actually in there. It felt good seeing him though, it also felt weird walking out the visiting room w| out him. I can't wait til he comes home, Oct.13. Which is sooooo far away from now. Me and him talked about a lot though, him being in there actually brought us a lot more closer.

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A CONFUSED MIND

Only if you understood were im coming from, what I have to go through, and see how my side looks different from yours. They don't like me? So fucking what! Everybody is not suppose to like me. Don't like it? Well fix it. That's what I been wanting you to do, atleast stick up and say how you feel, they're your family? Well then you should be able to really speak your mind and say how you feel, don't you think? Doesn't that make perfect sense, a [CLOSED] mouth doesn't get fed. What? Your scared of how they may feel about what you have to say? Your grown, grow some balls! When family have a problem you talk and try to work it out, so whats the deal?

So confused! Maybe your not ready for a relationship, maybe your not man enough, so many reasons I can't put the pieces together, there's always a blank spot were that puzzle piece doesn't go, so I keep trying all these other routes but they seem to keep ending right back in the same spot it doesn't belong. What to do? Should I leave? Stay? Work it out? What if he doesn't want to? Then what? Stay or leave? Should I just make a decision for him, and make it easier for everyone else by leaving, even if I don't want to? How would he feel then?

For once in my life I seriously just don't know.

QUOTE OF THE DAy.

"We go through the struggles, but it makes us stronger by the second"

Everyday is a struggle, but we do what we can to survive and get through the hard times.

ITS OUR ANNIVERSARY.

Okay so on Jan. 14, 2010 is me and my hubby's 3rd year anniversary, I'm very excited, I got a lot planned for that day. He keeps reminding me like I don't know when our anniversary is?! Men, I swear, they crazy! Lol. I don't want to post what I got planned, because he will be nosy, and might look on here! =] But i'm really just thankful that me and niko have another year together, and many more years to come! He is really my everything, I will do anything for him, and will forever have his back! No, I don't care what anyone has to say. Anyways, I could go all day about my relationship, but yeah, i'm very excited for "our" day!

IM EVERY WOMAN.

A good woman is proud.
She respects herself and others.
She is aware of who she is.
She neither seeks definition from the person she is with,
nor does she expect them to read her mind.
She is quite capable of articulating her needs.
A good woman is hopeful.
She is strong enough to make all her dreams come true.
She knows love, therefore she gives love.
She recognizes that her love has great value and must be reciprocated.
If her love is taken for granted, it soon disappears.
A good woman has a dash of inspiration and a dabble of endurance.
She knows that she will at times have to inspire others
to reach the potential God gave them.
A good woman knows her past, understands her present
and forces toward the future.
A good woman knows God.
She knows that with God the world is her playground,
but without God she will just be played with.
A good woman does not live in fear of the future because of her past.
Instead, she understands that her life experiences are merely lessons meant to bring her closer to self-knowledge and unconditional self-love...

The reason I put a picture of the black, famous women up there is because they all achieved in all their goals, and changed the world in many different ways, they are a definition of A GOOD WOMAN.

Beautiful poem, don't know who wrote it, but they are absolutely talented!! I would say this poem reminds me of myself =] because I am a good woman, I handle all my business, and will continue to, so this is for all the woman bloggers reading my blog, us women are GOOD WOMEN, and are good at what we do! So don't ever let anyone tell you your not a good woman or try and bring you down, even for those who aint handlin' your business, girl get up and start fixin' your life up! Tomorrows never promised so like mama would say "Clean it up"!